I think this is my first time posting to this forum, but I wanted to get some advise regarding burnout/stress.
I graduated about 2 years ago and started at a family practice clinic. I didn't enjoy how myself or the patients were being treated so I left after 6-7 months and switched to another primary care clinic. The employers and coworkers at this new practice are great. They really focus on hiring the "right" personality and ensure everyone gets along. BUT.....
The thing is, any time I see over 14-16 + patients a day, I feel ridiculously stressed out. I get all the new patients. Some of them come in with 5+ complaints per visits. I get A LOT of drug seekers, and when I refuse to fill the Rx they request, they complain to the manager or write a nasty review about me online. When I first started, a lot of the physicians were very open to questions, etc. But now when I have a question, certain physicians will tell me to "put my big girl pants" on. I hate complaining, but for a primary care/family practice PA, I have had QUITE A FEW patients I have literally needed to send to the hospital for immediate attention in the ER or to actually be hospitalized. I feel like I have bad luck (or maybe good luck??) as the PA's and even the medical assistants (who have been there for years), say I have much more complicated patients and apparently I always have a "good find." I've probably had 2-3 people shake my hand for random and rare anatomic abnormalities I've "found" on exam and sent for imaging or the other PA' seem impressed when I discuss one of my patients with them.
I worked for about 6-8 months at this new practice and then I went into this slump when the daily patient load seemed to pick up significantly. I literally went home crying for 2 weeks every day after work during November with the amount of stress I felt. I have a lot of patients tell me when they leave that my OV with them was one of the best they ever had with a provider..... but I'm just not happy. I really try hard to develop a relationship with my patients, get to know them, conversate...etc. I know I have a history of depression/anxiety. But it's just getting ridiculous and has really worsened since I've starting working in this field. I know my boyfriend/ family is getting tired of it.
I'm at the point that I think medicine is just not for me...but then if I go a few days to a week without practicing and I feel regretful for even thinking about switching careers. Then I work for like 2 days and am like.... hell I hate this again. Is this really the right field for me?
Is this common? Would switching specialties help (I've been told by like 2-3 people that this would make a difference)? Do I need to just suck it up and keep seeing patients and maybe this is an experience issue? I just don't know what to do. I feel like I spent so much time and money going into this career and now I'm wasting it all if I change careers.
I appreciate any and all advise...