Need some help/advice for dealing with anxiety.
I just started my first quarter of PA school about a month ago. At first glance, everything is seemingly going great- classmates are nice and I have made A's on all exams up to this point.
However, I have been dealing with a LOT of anxiety since day 1. It makes me feel not like myself at all! It has turned me into a quiet, sheepish, and slightly awkward person. I hate this.
At first, it was believing I wasn't as smart as my peers or outgoing enough (so, more of a social intimidation, unintentionally). Then, I convinced myself I'd probably not make it through the first quarter because of the sheer volume of info. Now that I've proved to myself I can conquer the material (so far), I still feel insecure because I find it difficult to connect with my peers. Sometimes I feel like I can't be my true self around them since we are supposed to maintain our professionalism.
Overall, I just feel a bit lonely and anxious with moving out of state and starting this rigorous program and I don't feel like I have an outlet. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, honestly why I am posting about this anonymously. I don't like to ask for help- and actually no one who knows me knows I struggle with this. But this kind of anxiety is a new beast I haven't dealt with before. Almost feels like my throat is being strangled :/. Considering therapy, but who has time for that??
Will any of this get better?
I graduated December 2017 and my specialty of choice is Psychiatry. However, the only Psych position that I found in my area was Locum Tenens for 6 months, outpatient. I can't move at this moment. Any advice? Should I start with this or wait for the right position? Loan repayment starts in May so I'm a little worried.
Does anyone use any of these? I find it useful with my patients to have for 2 reasons:
1- It gives you a number for future reference, to use as a base line for tracking patient progress.
2- Something objective in the patient's own hand to scan into the record for future reference.
If anyone is interested I have about 15 different ones I use. I also made short MACROS for pasting into the PE section when having the patient fill one out. Bonus: while the patient is filling out the assessment, I update the EMR, check the PMP and look at the intake documents.
Tomorrow I am posting a dilemma that I have been struggling with.... Stay tuned and please comment..