Need some help/advice for dealing with anxiety.
I just started my first quarter of PA school about a month ago. At first glance, everything is seemingly going great- classmates are nice and I have made A's on all exams up to this point.
However, I have been dealing with a LOT of anxiety since day 1. It makes me feel not like myself at all! It has turned me into a quiet, sheepish, and slightly awkward person. I hate this.
At first, it was believing I wasn't as smart as my peers or outgoing enough (so, more of a social intimidation, unintentionally). Then, I convinced myself I'd probably not make it through the first quarter because of the sheer volume of info. Now that I've proved to myself I can conquer the material (so far), I still feel insecure because I find it difficult to connect with my peers. Sometimes I feel like I can't be my true self around them since we are supposed to maintain our professionalism.
Overall, I just feel a bit lonely and anxious with moving out of state and starting this rigorous program and I don't feel like I have an outlet. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, honestly why I am posting about this anonymously. I don't like to ask for help- and actually no one who knows me knows I struggle with this. But this kind of anxiety is a new beast I haven't dealt with before. Almost feels like my throat is being strangled :/. Considering therapy, but who has time for that??
Will any of this get better?
IMHO there is a great deal of potential in this specialty.
This article is a few months old but the numbers are solid...
According to this article ' Nationally about 1,800 PAs, or roughly 2% of the total number practicing, specialize in psychiatry'.
Looking at Psychiatrist shortage ' From 2003 to 2013, the number of practicing psychiatrists declined by 0.2%, to 37,889 nationally by 2013. During the same decade, the number of adult primary care doctors increased by 9.5%, to 211,121 total, and by 14.2% to 862,444 among physicians overall'. ' By 2015, 60% were 55 years or older'.
I know.... You are thinking that new grads need experience for this type of work. This is not true. The right personality and an opportunity are all you need.... That and a desire to work in mental health, I should say...
Of course you can apply for a clerkship. I found 7 programs here:
Hello. I am worried about my grades at the moment and wanted some insight.
I have currently a overall GPA of 3.1 (45 total cred) but my biology major GPA is 2.6 (14 cred)
I have quite a number of classes to take, I plan to do well in all of them.
---> I am worried about 4W's and 2 WN on my transcript, since PANCE application does not omit any grades at all.
Reason why: I have been battling depression since I started college 3 years ago, if it was up to me I would take a year out of college and focus on volunteering and healthcare related work in order to give myself quality time to really recollect myself.
I am living with my parents and have expressed that I wished to have treatment for depression, but sadly Asian parents are especially not understanding about mental health and completely disregarded my debilitating mental health.
It is not good to have an interview and tell them I have depression. Therefore, my plans as of now:
-move out, dorm, apply for student loans
-get 2 part times, find a good psychiatrist
-take a semester off from school and focus on work, volunteering, and healing
Does this plan seem likely? in short, I really hope to God that I get better and have documented proof that I am healing. I hope to turn the W and WN's into better grades and prove that I am truly dedicated to being a PA.